|6/4: Hardly seems possible I said good bye to Leslie almost 2
weeks ago. Hanna is gagging a lot. Parkers legs are
getting tangled up more frequently. Cotton is stiff in the
joints if I forget his DGP. Sadied anti-anxiety pills are
starting to work. $42 for 28 pills (2 weeks). For that
same $42 only less ($40) I can get 360 pills so have a call into the
vet to call it in. I'll take this last script back.
Mowed again Monday. Darn rain just makes everything grow so fast. Weed eated the 2 yards next to the shop this morning. Much more to do, but that pinched nerve in my neck/shoulder is like a thousand hot needles. Sitting here at the computer does not help. Sitting at the sewing machines is even worse. Anyway, it is fixing to rain any moment so couldn't get another area finished if I started. Guy from Care Ministries did not follow instructions and he cut the strings way too short. I didn't realize it until I was finished this morning. No wonder it was so hard. 24" not 12"
Jenny has been a Blessing to Thayne in WA. They lost their Sky to cancer yesterday. Jenny had fallen in love with him on day one. She was by his side the whole several days they fought for his life and at his grave site watching over. These are the kind of things that make taking the chance worth it.
Didn't get much sleep last night. Call came at 11:30 p.m. I had just laid my book down at 10:30. I don't run to the phone. Got up for the message. Some guy found 2 stray dogs and was concerned and trying to help them and no one would come help. No phone number. People assume everyone has caller ID and a cell phone. I have neither. I assume it was him who called back at 3:30 a.m. but did not leave a message this time. By then, I just stayed up.
Kathleen was down for 3 days. We worked hard on the dogs and stayed up talking way past our bed times. I so enjoy her company. One sided conversations with the dogs is fine, but I do enjoy an exchange sometimes, besides woof woof.
Sandra will be here in 3 weeks. I hope I can take her places. With Sadies anxiety under control, I hope we can get away for more then a few hours.
|5/24: The church group came yesterday and most of the yard
work got done. 9 guys so I was not able to supervise everyone.
Instructions were mis-understood on some things so disappointed it
is not all as it should have been. Flea and tick spray got
wasted in the front yard where not even I walk. Probably
chased them all over to where I DO walk. I mowed the back
yesterday so they would know what needed weed eated, but they kind
of mis-understood some of that too. I mowed the front today
and discovered the guy completely left out my hill that I
specifically pointed out. Hopefully I can run the DR Trimmer
on it tomorrow. Too steep for the lawnmower.
Girls came today. I was too tired to supervise them either. But they are pretty good on their own. Cotton got combed. He picks up so much debris from outside. Tomorrow will be combing out the rest. Maybe next weekend when Kathleen is here, I will have more energy and Freedom can get a bath.
Hanna came back to the shop so my opening the gates to let the dogs together did not serve her well. Pumpkin is so awful. She scares Hanna.
My back/right shoulder is on fire. It has been for about 3 weeks. Maybe more. Have a Dr. appointment Tuesday. A list but I'm sure he will just dismiss my concerns like he always has in the past. I do need to get a script for an inhaler. Don't have asthma very often, but when I do, I really need it. Wish he'd refer me for massages for my back/shoulder. Then the insurance would pay.
I miss Leslie. Hanna looks so much like her. Sometimes it is like she is still here.
|5/22: Said good bye to Leslie today. She could stand early this morning, but by 9 she was down and could not get up. I tried to help her with a sling, but it was hopeless. It was time. Wendy came during her lunch so she wouldn't have to suffer until tomorrow when I had the appointment to get Leslie a 'perk up' shot that helped Zelda so much. It was just not meant to be. My biggest sorrow is Emo. He keeps looking for her. He was right there watching, but afraid of "strangers". He just knows Leslie is gone and keeps trying to find her. This is just tearing me up. He won't let me comfort him. He has continued to be illusive although touchable when beside Leslie. I don't know where we will be at now with her gone. I don't know what the others will do either. Fraz and Patty are still outside enjoying a nice spring day for a change. They were not as attached to Leslie as Emo was. Pumpkin has not come over to look for her yet. I don't think Pumpkin realizes the doors are open.|
Storm last night so little sleep. Girls came at 8 a.m. to bathe Pumpkin. (last of the wild bunch). I always close the doggie door in the shop so our "victim' can't escape until we are finished. Never gave Sadie a thought.
Sadie has separation anxiety and it has accelerated since Darcy left. Maybe she think she might have to leave again too. Got back to the house 2 1/2 hrs later. She had dumped the water container (again). At least 1 1/2 gal on the floor and onto an area rug. She was covered in mud. So was my bed, under the sheets, my pillow, the bedroom carpet and every floor in the house.
After total melt down, I
got out the steam cleaner to start on the bedroom carpet...… THE
DRAWERS IN THE BATHROOM CABINET HAD ALL BEEN PULLED OPEN …… I'm
impressed she thinks I am small enough to hide in one, but
really, Sadie.... This is extreme.
|5/18: Survived food poisoning. Popeyes is definitely
off the list again and for good.
Not making any progress with Leslie. Today she would not cooperate for me to drop the CBD oil in her mouth. This is getting tough. She just wants to be near me. Trouble is Hanna has moved to the shop which makes being near everybody impossible. I am struggling both physically and emotionally.
|5/13: Leslie is not doing good. I'll run her in for
blood work today and on Thursday, a vet appt. with Rob. I know
it is old age, but if there is something I can do to make her more
comfortable, then that is what I want to do. She is not
eating. Neither was Parker. Parkers got solved with
fresh cooked hamburger and scrambled eggs. Not working for
Leslie. Can't get her pills down her at all. Even making
them into a cheese burger. She nibbled at the scrambled eggs
and beacon this morning but ate less then half an egg. Hardest
part is not being able to get on the floor to love on the ones who
can't stand up for my attention. I run away from the 24/7 care
I want to give them because emotionally and physically, I just can't
Hanna has decided she likes the shop so I spend part of the night trying to sleep down there and the rest at the house. Last night I went to bed at 6:00 p.m. Woke up at 10:00 p.m. Came to the shop at around 11. Had to bring Hanna her dinner and pills since she had not come to the house for them. I slept on the love seat. It is the most comfortable sleeping place. Preferable to any of the 4 beds available. It just wraps around me and I don't wake up hurting.
Jenny and Darcy are both doing great. Both have moved onto the bed with their respective parent. Thayne sent a pix. Darren told me in an email. Darcy will move on to a forever home. Jenny is already at her forever.
|5/8: Darcy was delivered 5/3. I've had several
updates so that is great. Seems she is fitting in. I was
sure she would. Jenny arrived 5/6. Totally exhausted
from her trip. There were several hundred middle school kids
on the Ferry ride when Thayne picked her up. She got a lot of
attention but think she slept through most of it. Thayne has
been great with communication also.
Hanna has moved to the shop. I can't get her to come to the house. I slept down here in the apartment until 2 a.m. Then went up and slept next to Leslie and Parker. Stretching myself a hundred yards is a bit far. I like my own bed but rarely get to sleep in it. I need to have someone help me switch mattresses around. I ache.
This morning after feeding everyone else, I fixed Hannas breakfast. Then got my donuts and milk and headed down to have breakfast with her. I guess she had gotten impatient as she found her own breakfast. She had a dead rabbit in her mouth. At least it appeared to be dead. Could have been in shock. I'm hoping. Anyway, I put our breakfasts inside and grabbed a plastic bag. The race was on. She was not going to give it up. This is Hanna who can barely walk and barely see. I finally caught up to her and get it away and tossed it over the fence. It was still warm and there was only one tiny puncture wound on it's side. I'll hope it was ok, but really stretching it to think so. I lost my appetite. Felt bad for the rabbit but handling it also made my nauseous. I did recover. Donuts are my downfall.
I am so sick of rain. I mowed a week ago but grass was still a bit damp. Not had 2 dry days in a row so it is a foot tall in places. The house is always full of muddy foot prints. Parker, Leslie, Cotton and Pumpkin only go outside to potty. Sadie travels where ever I go, picking up mud between house and shop. The others lay out in the rain until they get wet and then bring it all in. I mop once a week which makes it really hard as so much has dried. My back just can't handle it daily.
This past weekend we started baths with the wild bunch. Saturday was Patty. Sunday was Cola. Next weekend will be Pumpkin and Emo. Followed by Cotton and Fraz. Leslie and Parker are just not up to it. And Hanna is so darn thick if we ever got her skin wet, she'd never get dry. Freedom has such a different coat, he just doesn't get dirty. Sadie gets dirty a lot. We now have a routine. When she comes in covered in mud, I just point to the bathroom and she gets in the shower! I just love this girl and obviously she loves me. Extreme separation anxiety.
Update on the gas expense of the 2200 miles. Right at $400. What a relief that (1) the SUV did well and (2) gas prices were not astronomical. So Jenny's trip will have been just under $2000 with airfare and gas (I still have gas to get my SUV back) not counting the money I gave Sandra and KC for doing this.
Looking again at Idaho property. It is just not going to happen unless a miracle. Prices are like California.
Damn rain just hit hard again. I sure hope the dogs have all come in. I'm at the shop. Next break in the rain, I need to run back up to the house and check on Parker.
|5/3: Such a sense of loneliness. Sandra and KC just left an hour ago heading back to WA. My daughter will be back in June. I sure hated such a short visit, but was so glad to see her. KC has matured so much in the past 5 years. I am really proud of him. The shop is so empty. I still miss JoJo. Having Jenny and Heidi, ever so briefly was nice. But winter is barely over and it will roll around again. I just can't have responsibilities in the shop when weather is bad. Not rescuing is like closing a great, but stressful novel before you get to the end. Wondering the outcome, but unable to find where you put the book.|
|4/28: I said good bye to Heidi. I only had her 3
weeks. The vets thought she might make it 2 months. It
was just not to be. She was holding steady until 2 days ago.
Then she quit eating. I even scrambled eggs and fixed ground
turkey breast. She nibbled at the egg. And then she just
would not eat. Was throwing up the water she drank. And
then yesterday afternoon, her back legs just gave out. Even
with my help, she could not stay up. I laid on the floor with
her most of the night. I finally crawled in bed. But I
lay there watching her breath. Luckily Wendy was the vet on
call. I know by 11 this morning that she was suffering
terribly. Bt noon she had crossed the Rainbow Bridge.
This hit me harder then even my long time ones. I so wanted to
make up for some of the bad things she had lived through. She
just did not give me enough time.
Sandra and KC will be here Thursday. Dave offered to drive me to the airport. What a relief! I am so terrified of getting lost, which I have every single time. Then Friday morning Sandra and KC will share driving Darcy to Denver and Jenny back to Washington state. I never thought about the rising cost of gas. If it keeps going up, I'll be lucky for them to get there under $1000. Then in Oct. Sandra will drive it back to me. Another $1000. So with air fare, this is $3000 to deliver a dog to Thayne. But I know he will give her a great forever.
That will put me at 11. I don't think Leslie will last too much longer. She refuses to take her meds and clings to me. Parker just seems to keep going, much to my amazement. I just wish Pumpkin and Hanna could get over what ever their disagreement was. But neither will let it go so the doors and gates stay close between them. I worry about Patty, but especially Fraz. I know he has had more seizures and they jump him. His ear was bloody a few days ago. He just does not want to stay on the front side. And forcing him only makes him more nervous which is likely to bring on a seizure. Even with 11, life is not going to be simple. But I love them all.
|4/25: It has rained almost constantly. I am so sick
of it. And the mud. I have 5 of the wild bunch closed in
the dogs room and my room. Got smart. Had a plastic
table cover I got at the thrift store for 50 cents. New in the
package. It fits perfect over my queen bed. Put it over
my sheets and then a sheet over it. Won't have 'soak through'
this time. I had to close them in because Cola and Pumpkin
won't let Patty, Fraz and Freedom into the rooms. They were
outside laying in the rain. Same yesterday. I got them
sort of dry. Don't know when I will be able to open everything
up so everybody has choices. None of the pack will stay at the
shop. I've tried.
Just in such a slump. Weather doesn't help, but I need direction. I need a goal. I'm not one to just set back and let life happen. I need to be an active participant. I need a road that leads to a destination and then another road that leads to another.
Poor Jenny stayed in the outside shelter. Not sure how long but her food bowl was still full. Took me awhile to realize the plastic flap on the doggie door had come down. She is use to it held up out of the way and an open space to come in. She didn't know to push the flap. She gobbled down her food. It must have fallen down right after I went to the house last night.
Allergy pills are barely helping but sure putting me to sleep. A take one as soon as I get up and 2 hours later, I'm falling asleep sitting up.
Too much Facebook. I am getting too critical of stupid. I guess people have a right to stay stupid. And for every argument there is pages of Google to back up both sides. Thus expanding the stupid. Sort of like the old child game where teacher would give the first student a paper with a sentence written on it. Then it would be whispered into the next students ear. By the time the circle was complete, the last students information was absolutely nothing like what the teacher had started with. That game should be mandatory for logging into Facebook every day. We take such license in embellishing the beginning to suit our agenda. Google posts are the worst example followed closely by Snopes, which has been debunked repeatedly as not factual. But if it agrees with them, then it is 'great'. We are robots to a tech world....as in the movie 2020 put out so many years ago. Sci-Fi becomes reality. Sadly we don't believe Sci-Fi (which stands for Science FICTION) until it takes over. I'm sure somewhere in the future there will be "beam me up, Scotty" throughout the universe. Glad I will be long gone, but hope not forced to watch from above.
|4/21: So much has been going on that I hardly have time to
sleep. My daughter and grandson are flying in May 2 and
driving my SUV back to Washington state with Jenny (aka Jerry aka
Geri) and dropping Darcy off in Denver on the way. That
will put me back at 12. Heidi is new. She is a hospice
dog with advanced cancer. Thought she was a Komondor / Pyr mix
but having second thoughts on it. Can't think of the breeds,
but possibly white Puli or maybe even some Schnauzer breed.
She has an attitude against other dogs so that is making things
difficult. She won't get to join the house bunch but she will
have me during days when I sew in the shop.
Sadies' separation anxiety has multiplied to the point of hysteria. Mine and hers! We have had rain and rain and mud. I don't know what this mud is, but it's not normal mud. It sticks to fur like tar and dried on the floor and walls like concrete. Two days ago was the ultimate. Darcy got me up at 4:40 a.m. Not that I had really gotten any sleep. I was in the spare bedroom comforting Parker and Leslie during the storm. Wild bunch had stayed out in the rain until soaked then slept on my bed. My bed was soaked all the way through to the mattress. That required 4 loads of laundry. The floors through out the house were caked in muddy foot prints. I mopped and then I closed that bedroom off as didn't want mud on the mattress. While cleaning that bed, either Darcy or Sadie brought mud onto the other bed and carpet. This was all before sun-up. Fed the dogs. Traded out the bedding and put the freshly laundered bedding on the spare bed and started the next 3 loads. Gave Sadie a bath in the shower. Sopped up the muddy wet floor with a towel. All this by 8:15 a.m.
I had an appointment at 8:45 at the Ford dealership to have the SUV checked out. Got that done. Came home and checked in on the girls (dog helpers). Sadie had drug in mud every where again. I left again to go get new tires. Got home and gave Sadie another shower. Mopped again. Girls left at noon. Took a break and came to the shop and sewed for an hour. Went back up to find the spare bedroom door had been left open. Sadie had been looking for me, I guess. I guess she thought I was under the covers or between the sheet and mattress pad. MUD!. At that point, I cried! I had to start all over. All my mopping had been useless. Laundry had been for nothing. Seven loads were still not complete and now I had 4 more. Plus the carpet and area rugs had to be steam cleaned before that tar/concrete dried. And the floor mopped again. This time the walls were also splattered with mud. She had splattered mud all over the toilet and sink and even as high as the light switches and mirror.
Sadies third shower of the day. At least she is getting the hang of it. Just marched right in when I pointed to the bathroom. Walked right in the shower!!
By the time I finished the laundry, mopped the floors a final time and steam cleaned the carpet in the bedroom, it was 8:30 p.m.
It has taken me 2 days to write this up. I was hoping to make it humerous, but it just is not going to happen. Maybe in a few years I can look back on that day and laugh, but for now, I'm still ready to cry. What am I going to do when I have to be gone for a few hours and cna't take Sadie with? I can't crate her. She'd die of a heart attack. I can't close her outside as she can easily go over or under any fence. Temptation to make her a fake service dog..... but I would not do that....
|4/3: So many emotional ups and downs. Hanna and
Pumpkin now have to be separated. That has caused a lot of
stress. Freedom is digressing and getting quite the bully
where as before he was the one being bullied. I've tried
moving some of the wild bunch. Pumpkin promptly ate through
the chain link fence leaving poor crippled Cola behind. So now
Cola, Pumpkin and Freedom have the back side of the house and the
other 9 have the front side. Patty and Fraz are not yet
comfortable without the whole pack but the weather is nice so when
they get hungry enough, they will come up to eat. Leslie and
Emo prefer this side anyway.
Darcy has come a long way. Destruction is at a minimum now. Some day I will make a list. 10 rolls of toilet paper. 4 bedroom slippers. One computer mouse. 2 feather and 2 fiber fill pillows. 4 pencils. That's just what comes to mind at the moment.
I'm taking in Heidi, a hospice cancer girl. She will come Sunday. Will see Rob (vet) Mon or Tue. for instructions. All diagnostic vetting has been done.
Geri came from Linda (Green Forest AC) yesterday. She said "he" was Jerry, but upon further inspection, it's a girl. She has either been hit by a car or beaten. Also snake bit. She is scheduled for vet tomorrow, but I may have to up that to today. I really wanted Wendy to see her, thus the extra day delay.
|2/21: Finally sleep! Steam cleaned carpet and area
rugs yesterday. Machine conked out half way through.
Took it in and got a new one (exchange under warranty) and damned if
it didn't quit before I was done. It was the only one in
stock, so I'll wait a few weeks before taking this one back and
trying again. Vacuum is acting up too. Just spent $80 on
a new switch. Think the roller brush gears are shot now.
One of my adopters has had some really bad situations the past few months. Health, hospitalization, huge CC theft which the bank is not reversing and a neighbor calling police on dogs barking during the day! I don't think that is a law but she is giving up the dog she adopted from me. I understand her stress although my stress is nothing compared to hers. Breaks my heart because she is such a kind woman. No one deserves the stuff she is going through.
I'm still flip flopping on what to do... where to live. This place makes me exhausted and I don't know how to turn off my "neat and clean" side. I love my hill and really had set on building up there, but so many set backs, that now I am wavering. Looking at MO again and maybe close to Kathleen or maybe Kate who is also retiring from rescue. I don't want to be a burden the Bob and Kathleen. I know they would come anytime I needed them, but it would not be fair to them. I just need a person in my life who has no other life and we could work together for common interests and goals. Love dogs and be able to change a light bulb :-)
Didn't get enough sugar fix this morning. Seeing double and auras rotating in my peripheral vision. Not a clue if what I'm typing is what I'm intending!
|2/15: Finally sorta caught up on this blog. Rainy, dreary day. Dogs are a muddy mess. I got donuts this morning but it's 2:00 now and I need some lunch so heading back to the house. Never know what to expect when Darcy has been alone.|
|2/14: My dogs are my Valentines.|
|2/14 Prayers for my daughter. This has not been a good year so far. Huge vet bill, she has been sick for several weeks and now Washington state is under snow and her storage building is collapsing on top of about 50 of the childrens Power Wheels she works so hard to restore to both give away and sell. It will not covered by insurance. Neither were her vet or medical.|
Thank God Kathleen came down. I was in the hospital. Kidney stones.
Home now. They are dissolving but I'm worthless to take care of the
dogs. I know the paramedics thought I was a nut case as all I could
talk about as they were loading me up was the instructions on what
doors needed opened and what gates needed closed.
Update: Sunday 8 a.m.: Still got some pain and some nausea. I won't take the Hydrocodone. And the anti nausea makes me nauseas! Am taking the antibiotic and the stuff to dissolve the stone. Couldn't manage without Kathleen.
Weatherman was right on! Damn thunderstorm at 4 a.m. With the broken
doggie window Darcy had a great time bringing in as much rain as she
could and drying it off on my bed then going back out for a
'refill'. Parker managed to sneak by me and get stuck half in and
half out of the bathtub. I could not back him up, so had to help him
in. Then he got his legs tangled and was stuck and in pain. He could
not help so I am in the tub with barely enough room for my feet
lift a 100 pound stuck dog. He wasn't very steady once out. (neither
was I!) Poor guy. Got storm pills down him and Leslie and they
helped when the following round hit about 5:30. It is one of those
"I just want to go off in a corner and cry" days. I am praying the
apartment is not flooded. The yard sure is and my wet weather creek
looks like a year round one.
Thank you God! The apartment is not flooded. Darcy is running off some energy in the very muddy 'creek'. I can handle the mud. Apartment flood, no, not at all. So today is going to be ok.
Never a dull moment. My dog food was scheduled for delivery Monday.
Didn't come. FedX said Tuesday. I fed the last this morning so
figured I was good. Didn't come. Now it says tomorrow so I went to
town to grab a bag. Came home the this!! This is my innovative
doggie door that has survived several years. There was a crack in
one glass, but now on all 4 sides. Inside and outside of each piece.
Guy will be out tomorrow afternoon to let me know what this is going
to cost! I bet Darcy has a head ache as I don't know who else would
have tried to go through the glass rather then the opening.
Lowes guy came out and told me who to get as there is no way to replace the window without taking the whole door out. I kind of figured that. And he told me to be sure I got tempered glass for the doggie windows when I build on the hill. He was impressed with Darcy and she was her usual "Did you come to see me" self.
Leaves are finally up. Great company and real dog lovers. I still have some in the small yard areas which I will rake and burn.
Need to find someone to help me move fencing. I just can't drag 12' long kennel panels up the hill, stand them up, hold them in place and attach each section. It is not a one person job. I need to section off the hill so when they start construction, the dogs will still have plenty of space but be kept out of harms way They need kept secure while upper fence is down and workers are hauling in and out. ….
I wish I could make up my mind on my house floor plan. It all worked fine until I decided I really do need a garage. Just threw the whole plan off. I like lots of windows. A garage either eliminates a wall of windows or blocks views. I want all rooms handicapped accessible with pocket doors so that makes planning bathrooms almost as big as a small bedroom. Hopefully I won't be needing pushed around in a wheel chair, but after trying to maneuver Loren around this house in his, I want to be sure access will work smoothly
|2/01: 6 Robocalls today and it's not even noon!
Ever get one of those "something is wrong" feelings? I felt overwhelmed 5 hours ago. Checking to be sure all family is ok. Know my dogs here are ok. I think most of us get those feelings. This one is really strong and can't shake it.
|1/29: I'm moving ahead with my "move". Just going to build up the hill. The dogs love the hill and I just can't climb it so instead of going and getting them and bringing them down, I will just go live up there with them! I know to anyone who does not love dogs, this sounds insane. To me it makes perfect sense. Building a space a fourth the size of what I now have. Original plan was a fifth the size, but that became too drastic Won't be fancy. A Pole Barn House. $60 sf vs $150 sf! Still tweaking the plan. Poor guy figuring cost my bop me over the head if I tweak it too much I'm finally feeling positive about something. I really needed this.|
|1/24: A hint of sunshine for awhile. Brought me out of the "Dreary, I'm freezing and just want to stay in bed" mode. Sewed in the morning. Steam cleaned the bedroom carpet and washed all the bedding in the afternoon. It's going to be off limits just for tonight. I want just one room clean for 24 hours! So sick of MUD!.|
|1/15 again: A WOW moment! Darcy enticed Freedom to play chase. It was beautiful to see Freedom having fun. I've waited for this moment for over 5 years! Make keeping this girl worth all the rolls of toilet paper.|
The Adventures with Darcy
1/15/19 Today began with a midnight “squash mommy” episode. Sadie and Hanna were on one side of the bed. Sadie against my legs and Hannas rear between my shoulder blades and her head at my rear. Then comes Darcy. Since there was only a sliver of room on MY side of the bed, after her standing over me for attention, she stretched out butt in my chest, tail in my face and her head on my feet. When all body parts started to go numb from lack of circulation, I managed to toll over so I could bend my knees in the small space between Hanna and Sadie. This woke Darcy up. She could not get off the bed because Leslie and Pumpkin had moved into all floor space on what had become Darcys' side of the bed. Emo was at the foot of the bed and Parker and Cotton on the floor on the other side. Darcy stood up. I turned onto my back. Darcy stepped with both paws in the middle of my chest. I began to cough for air. That startled Emo, Leslie and Pumpkin. They ran out of the room. Darcy laid down full body on top of me and I was gasping while trying to get my arms free out from under the covers. I finally got Darcy off me. She did not leave without washing my face.
After getting the dogs fed, I went to the grocery store. Upon returning, toilet paper roll number 7 graced the bedroom floor. There was none in the bathroom because after roll number 6, I began putting them on the back of the toilet rather then on the roller. Foolish me! It had unrolled with the roll part well under the bed. Of course, the more I pulled, the more unrolled it became. This is added to one feather pillow and 2 fiber fill pillows, one computer mouse, Camp trailer title, notebook, lost count of pencils and ink pens, two bath towels (which will become hand towels. I don't waste if and when I can recycle), one kitchen towel, one package of Brawnschwager, 2 bedroom slippers, two shoes (no, neither the slippers nor the shoes were a pair and no they were not for opposite feet, so I couldn't even make a new fashion statement.) And, of all things, dog hair! Yes she eats dust bunnies of dog hair! Should I be thankful? And yes, she has lots of dog toys but then I don't think she knows she's a dog.
I have a new-to-me sofa. I only paid $50 but it is really nice and the color is perfect. I got it Saturday morning. I'm afraid Darcy will chew on it. I covered it with a quilt but she had been pulling it off. I sprayed the quilt with straight vinegar and she licked it!!! Yesterday Kathleen and I took Darcy to the pet store. We tried the Bitter Apple, Fooey, Etc. She was not phased! Licked our hands like it was a treat. I bought one anyway. Waste of $16. Last night I sprinkled black ground pepper on the quilt. Figured if she pulled, it would get in her nose and she would stop. The quilt was half off the sofa when I was finally able to get my legs to working from the nights 'squash' job.
I suppose some of her restlessness was because I had the gate to the upper hill closed for 24 hours. She was not able to run off as much energy (who am I kidding?) Reason for the gate closure was mud. Lots and lots of really sticky mud. I got her and Sadie in the shower and gave them a bath. I didn't want a repeat too soon.
|1/14: Update on the Wild Bunch. Fraz has not had any more seizures. His personality has totally changed. He is now wanting to be near me. That is wonderful since he NEVER wanted me to be close to him. However, a little jealousy or 'picking on the sick one' has begun. I've had some brief but blood drawn fights. I'm hoping they will iron themselves out as I am at a total loss of who to "kick out" of the house and put in the shop. I've worked too hard for 5 years to get to this social point with this feral bunch.|
4:00 a.m Fraz had a bad seizure....again. To my knowledge, his first one was at the vet's office a month ago. Since the "wild bunch" can be pretty elusive, staying up on the hill, I don't know for sure if he had any before or since. But at 4:00 a.m., he was in the kitchen. Heard a loud crash. Knew it was not Darcy as she was on the bed with me. Fraz was by the doggie door and had fallen under the bar stool which ended up crashing to the floor several feet away. Thank God it did not go through the sliding glass door. Got everyone else closed outside. (that is a real feat in itself) I had some slightly out of date (6 weeks) Phenobarbital left from Kate, so I got the Brawnschwager out and wrapped up 2 pills. Fraz was pretty 'out of it' when he stopped seizuring so I was able to direct him into the spare bedroom and close the door. Let everyone else back in. Never giving the Brawnschwager laying on the counter a thought. Not to worry. Darcy made short work of it.
I went in the bedroom and laid down next to Fraz. The more he got back to normal, the more anxious he got. Figured stress would trigger another seizure so let him back with his pack. This is going to be a really rough 'forever'. How can I keep him close to me and watch him if being close to people, including me, creates stress. Going to try the CBD oil route if It comes in capsule form. No way will he let me put drops in his mouth without totally stressing him out. A real catch 22. Hell if I do and hell if I don't.
2019 is NOT starting off well at all. And I could not wait for 2016, 2017 and 2018 to be over!
******** And it got worse!!!! 6:00 a.m. I don't know if he had another seizure, but all of a sudden I heard the 'attack' sounds. Fraz was on the ground screaming and two of the dogs were over him. Still dark and the outside light didn't give enough for me to tell who. (they all look alike anyway.) I screamed and they backed off but I had to go back in the house and slip into shoes. (This takes time. A whole other story). I got back outside and got Fraz steered into the house. Leslie, Emo, and Pumpkin were already inside. The 4 are closed in my bedroom for now as I try to figure out who I will move to the shop. I have to keep Fraz near me, but then would he be happier down there with one of the others. But not knowing who jumped him...…. I know it was not Leslie, but Leslie is VERY old and glued to me so putting her down there is not an option. Cola is crippled, but she can be a real sh*t head. She could have been the attacker. Could have been Pumpkin. Maybe Freedom. Unlikely Patty, but then I just don't know. I do know that when a dog has a seizure, the others do go a bit crazy. So I keep Fraz at the house, but who do I move???
I really am struggling to hold myself together.
I have ZERO knowledge of cell phones. Need advice on phone and provider. I don't want fancy. I want (1) no contracts (2) no expiration of minutes (3) don't need texting. (4) video capability would be nice.
I think we only have AT&T and Verizon. Don't know what Wal-mart offers.
Service at my house is getting better so I might not have to climb the hill length of a football field to use it. After the emergency call about Zelda, my fiber optic land line went dead for 2 hours. I had to drive around banging on doors at midnight to use a phone. I just need one for emergencies like this and since I'm having to pay for something, I would like to take an occasional video of the dogs playing and be able to upload it to the computer.
The Day After
Another piece of my heart was just sent across the Rainbow Bridge. Some of those pieces were taken after just a day in my life. This one thirteen years. The longest I have ever had the same dog in my life. And I ask myself, “Is this one really harder?” Not surprisingly, the answer is “No”. I gave her unconditional love. I gave her the best I had in me for every day I had her. No regrets. No “I wish I could do over” or ”I wish I had not done this or had done that”. From the day I got her from the kill shelter until the day I let her go, only one thing sparks regret: that she had to share my attention.
I think of Click. So happy to be free of his jail cell only to part within 24 hours because he had a highly contagious and fatal disease transmittable to humans. My husband had just been diagnosed as terminally ill. I could not take the risk and no other rescue was going to either. That one hurts the most, even after 7 years. Then poor Nomor. He was to be my last rescue, thus the name No more. He also was here during that time when my husband was dying. Nomor had a degenerative bone disease. After just a few months, the bones were just to brittle to walk. And there was Nicholas. He had an intestinal injury that because of location, was inoperable. We can only guess what horror caused this. Angel came with 6 cancerous lumps. Surgery on those and then 5 new ones showed up. More surgery. More lumps. I could not put her through a third surgery. I had to let her go after 3 months. Edison was well past his life expectancy. A big old drooly Saint. I only got to love him 3 months. Shelby who got bloat. A month later her tummy twisted and she was lost on the operating table. She was due to go to an adopter until the bloat. When I explained, the person backed out. I'm glad because at least she was with me until the end. And Kate. Dear sweet Kate. She left last year. Due to previous vet malpractice, she came with sever seizures. I tried my best to get her into a foster home near the University of Colorado where she could have been in a new study for CBD treatment of seizures. She died in my arms with the assistance of my vet. She went into an unending seizure and all I could do was take away her suffering. Way too little time with these. They are the ones I cry over.
I slept good last night. I knew Zelda was no longer in pain. I know she joined all the other hundreds of dogs she knew that have crossed before her over those 13 years. She joins Goofy, Sahara and Chipi who crosses the Bridge last year. I know she is happy. Maybe sad looking down on me because she misses me and knows how much I miss her I know she is sending love and comfort with every memory. I am ok. I have to be ok. I still have 12 dogs depending on me for the rest of their life or mine.
|1/05 I'm having to tell Zelda good bye in a few minutes. Vet is on her way to my house. 13 years she has been with me. Zelda is no longer in pain. She crossed the Rainbow Bridge last night. She was not responding to the shot and new meds.|
|1/04: I've become so popular in the realtor world since my listing ran out. Four letters from agents yesterday and 4 today all telling me why I need them. Well, by golly, if you have such a huge list of potential buyers, why didn't you show my house when it was listed?|
I have filled in 2018 with as much as I could take from Facebook posts I made since my computer was down.